I cant say murder

Cocoa skin
despite how much coffee she drinks
the way she looked that night
made the stars shine especially bright
the gods were right not to let me in
i didnt win
but no matter what i think
I cant say murder

I know where she's sore
but does whe understand
what it means to be a man?
the youth i'd have to give up
expectations to which i cant live up
I wished i was more
after i saw her that night
i could have given up my sight
but no matter how hard i fight
I cant say murder

I lost her
because i wouldnt play second fiddle
to everything else in her universe
I lost her when i put me first
seeing her that night i died a little
and felt like such an impostor
you should have seen her, like she was made of light
but no matter what i feel is right
I cant say murder

See that night i saw her pain
and couldnt believe i was its source
how does unrequited love morph into undesired force?
we should have just danced in the rain
cos she looked like magic in the moonlight
but i understood something, seeing her that doomed night
I couldnt make her happy so instead i just hurt her
they'll try to say i killed her but i still cant say its murder.


*Special thanks to Nice for that inspiring title. Hope you get to see this someday.